Here is a topic I have mentioned before– background checks.
One of the reasons I started blogging again last year is that I want control over where information about myself is accumulated on the internet. That’s not like, how the thought occurred to me, but it’s more or less why. I think about the truths that are out there.
Along that line of thought is the idea of scraping together all the information that’s about a person on the internet, or even in real life. I guess that’s sort of what happens in background checks. A file is compiled tracing your movements in life, based on stuff you do, records, stuff a lot of different people say about you.
I think it’s difficult to commission a security clearance investigation on yourself. Probably not really done, or even possible. But I would like to do that. According to an about.com entry on clearance investigations, costs range from a couple hundred to fifteen-thousand dollars according to level and complexity of the investigation. (This entry also uses the word “microfilm,” so perhaps costs are higher.) It could be worth it, though.
Unfortunately, even when the appropriate people authorize an investigation on another person, depending on the level of clearance the person being investigated isn’t normally privy to findings. So I don’t know. Of course, if I could find someone who would let me commission my own investigation, that person would probably also show me the results.
This is getting too existentialist. Cut.
Oh, but here’s something. Maybe I have written it on here already, but after Jason died, when I was still grieving, sometimes I would “look for him” on the internet. He wasn’t into putting himself out there, so there isn’t really anything. Actually there is nothing. And believe me, I am really good at finding stuff online. I satisfied myself a little by logging into his yahoo mail account occasionally and deleting the junk, checking for contact, and there wasn’t anything… There, I just logged in again. Still all junk.
Hm, and here is something else, actually, also from that period. When I was getting ready to move back from the UK permanently, it was right before Valentine’s Day. So I mailed myself a Valentine’s Day card in the US before I left. I received it in time. I wonder if I still have that. Probably in a box somewhere.
[Update 25 Dec 2010 10:36 AM: Yahoo kept me signed into Jason’s account without my realizing it, which made his address vulnerable to spambots. So this morning I received an “email” from him, spam. It didn’t get trapped in my spam folder because he’s still on my contacts list. Haha, Merry Christmas.]